The days I don't write on here, those days are easier days.  I don't think about it so much.  When I have to write on here, its because the pain comes back fully charged making it hard to breathe.  It is getting easier to live without him.  But the pain will always be there. I am never going to get over it.  I'm never going to be with anyone else, date, get married or have kids. This isn't a "pity me" statement, that is an actual choice I made.  I don't want any of those things anymore.








...Not without him